I would tell you how i feel but it just seem like you don't care so i'll just blog instead. At least that if you want to know then you can read it.
Well i just don't know what happened last night. Guess my emotions took over me last night. You started saying that i never tell you shit but everyone knows that i keep things to myself. Hide all my problems, emotions and EVERYTHING!!
I asked you what's wrong and you say 'nah its alright, itll only last a few minutes you know? il jus go put it on my blog for the public to know instead you knoiw?'
It's not like i choose not to tell you but some things are just un-important and better if kept to myself.
Later on i called you and were just too busy on msn so blehh!!
Didn't feel that good today because of what happened. A bit depressed but no one noticed since i 'strong on the surface but not all the way through' Period 3 during TUT just layed on the floor staring at the fuffly clouds. Very relaxing, gave me a chance to reflect on what's happening.
Just sent you the blog link but i don't expect you to read this. If you do read this than ty. it still shows you still care about me but if you don't then i can't do anything to change that.
No matter what happens i'll still love you!!!
Friday, August 29, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
H16BDKIM
Happy Birthday. This blog is my present for you. =]
You should be grateful you get a present from me so don't complain!
Well have fun on your birthday. Make the most of it!
Back to mathletics. =P
Like i promised, I'm extending YOUR blog. Well did i mention you've got one year less to live now? Well there you go! I know the truth hurts but you're old enough to handle the truth.
Well i also have to congratulate you for being legal. ;) Have fun and enjoy it now!
Ladedadeda
Enjoy the rest of your night. =]
You should be grateful you get a present from me so don't complain!
Well have fun on your birthday. Make the most of it!
Back to mathletics. =P
Like i promised, I'm extending YOUR blog. Well did i mention you've got one year less to live now? Well there you go! I know the truth hurts but you're old enough to handle the truth.
Well i also have to congratulate you for being legal. ;) Have fun and enjoy it now!
Ladedadeda
Enjoy the rest of your night. =]
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Feeling a bit down!
Ever had a time when you just want to escape? Run away from all your problems and concerns? Forget about everything?
Right now I'm feeling a bit down. Want some peace and not wanting to talk to anyone. Seeing things that i would rather not see. Once something is done it's done. There's no going back. Time would heal everything and finally it would be forgotten.
Seeing some things makes you question about what you're actually doing. Is it better to continue or is it better to stop before it gets any worse. Hard ting between humans is that they can never understand each other. Some things just cannot be said to others but once that person finds out then s/he will think about it more and more until it gets into their head. All they need is some peace and some quiet time alone.
It's funny how one day you're feeling one way then the next day you feel the complete opposite. You feel so lost that you don't even know what to do...
Right now I'm feeling a bit down. Want some peace and not wanting to talk to anyone. Seeing things that i would rather not see. Once something is done it's done. There's no going back. Time would heal everything and finally it would be forgotten.
Seeing some things makes you question about what you're actually doing. Is it better to continue or is it better to stop before it gets any worse. Hard ting between humans is that they can never understand each other. Some things just cannot be said to others but once that person finds out then s/he will think about it more and more until it gets into their head. All they need is some peace and some quiet time alone.
It's funny how one day you're feeling one way then the next day you feel the complete opposite. You feel so lost that you don't even know what to do...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Boring English
Currently in english.. boring lesson again but at least we've got computers this time. Need to choose a issue to research then write a feature article on it. No idea on what issue i should choose. Ms Rogoz isn't here today. =] Thats a first.
Two more periods till school ends. =] Arm starting to get sore because of people giving me b'day punches. ='[
It's my b'day today! 20th of August. Was woken up at 5ish by someone calling me. :@
Gna start doing my english.
Two more periods till school ends. =] Arm starting to get sore because of people giving me b'day punches. ='[
It's my b'day today! 20th of August. Was woken up at 5ish by someone calling me. :@
Gna start doing my english.
BasilMarket!
Many of you people reading this now probably got the link from basil. Thanks for clicking on the link. =] Comment my other blogs and tell me what you think.
Haven't blogged for a while... Where do i start? Well yesterday started out pretty weird. In accounting we got this packet of liquid make-up and put it on our hands. Our hands looked soo smooth. =P Then my friend put it on one side of my face so that side was soo pale compared to the other side. >=[ Also borrowed 'The Lost Boy' and 'A man named Dave' they're sequels to the book 'A Child Called It' which was so sad and depressing.
Well today i feel pretty good. Boring day at school. GnT test on Friday!!! I hate GnT. Seems like a waste of time, Getting nothing out of it. There's only like 5% of GnT stuff in Calc next year so GnT is BS! Never passed a GnT test so im not feeling very comfident right now. Can't even do one quesiton from the practice test without looking at the answers. =[
Well time to end my blogs for today...
Thanks for reading! and remember to comment!!!!
Haven't blogged for a while... Where do i start? Well yesterday started out pretty weird. In accounting we got this packet of liquid make-up and put it on our hands. Our hands looked soo smooth. =P Then my friend put it on one side of my face so that side was soo pale compared to the other side. >=[ Also borrowed 'The Lost Boy' and 'A man named Dave' they're sequels to the book 'A Child Called It' which was so sad and depressing.
Well today i feel pretty good. Boring day at school. GnT test on Friday!!! I hate GnT. Seems like a waste of time, Getting nothing out of it. There's only like 5% of GnT stuff in Calc next year so GnT is BS! Never passed a GnT test so im not feeling very comfident right now. Can't even do one quesiton from the practice test without looking at the answers. =[
Well time to end my blogs for today...
Thanks for reading! and remember to comment!!!!
Friday, August 15, 2008
Still unsure
It's 9.18AM of the 16th of August. Last night i found out what happened and why she was angry at me. The things she said was just BS! None of those things made sense. The friend who told me what happened will always be my friend even if does something wrong like he just did. One thing he said to me yday was 'Just know I'll always be your friend even if it doesn't mean like it and girls get in the way.' I can't stay angry at you because you were the one who made me who i am today. Without you i would never be the same.
A good moral is about the straw that broke the camel's back. A straw can't break a camel's back but if it piles up the camel will eventually be unable to support all that weigh on it's back and finally break. But how long will it take for the back to heal?
One minute? One day? One year? or never?
Hope it heals sooner than later. I've just had enough of this. You know i don't like it but you constantly put it in my face. Why not just tell someone who cares? I've had enough... I know i shouldn't be angry but its just hard to forget about it. You should understand why i am angry. I've told you soo many reaons to be and you don't even care. And the reasons you're angry at me isn't even right.. They're all lies!!!%&^* ARGHHHH!!!
Off to work now.
A good moral is about the straw that broke the camel's back. A straw can't break a camel's back but if it piles up the camel will eventually be unable to support all that weigh on it's back and finally break. But how long will it take for the back to heal?
One minute? One day? One year? or never?
Hope it heals sooner than later. I've just had enough of this. You know i don't like it but you constantly put it in my face. Why not just tell someone who cares? I've had enough... I know i shouldn't be angry but its just hard to forget about it. You should understand why i am angry. I've told you soo many reaons to be and you don't even care. And the reasons you're angry at me isn't even right.. They're all lies!!!%&^* ARGHHHH!!!
Off to work now.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Personal Blog
This blog is only made for myself to read. You won't understand anyway so just ignore it.
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Wednesday, August 13, 2008
The Lord's Prayer, A child called it
Reading the last chapter right now..
David now sees no point in life. 'I no longer cared when she made fun of me.' He doesn't care what is going around him and just focuses on what he has to do. He had to eat from dog's leftovers because that was the only food he could get. He is really depressed and hates everything and everyone in his life. He hated his Father for not having enough courage to stand up for him and try to free him from his Mother.
His brothers didn't even treat him as a human being as well. They took advantage of him by taking turns to hit him.
His mother said 'Get one thing straight, you little son of a bitch! There is nothing you can do to impress me! Do you understand me? You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and I wish you were dead!' I sympathise for David at this point. He has done everything he could to make her happy but she just screams in his face. Everyone deserves equal rights no matter what.
From that moment onwards he turned rebellious. He didn't listen to his mothers commands in public and 'wasn't going to take anybody's crap anymore.' I think he is doing the right thing. He is trying to show them that he deserves more respect.
But his mother made him suffer at home which made David scared of sticking up for himself now. His father ended up leaving him with his mother. =[
Go read the book! 'A child called 'it'' by Dave Pelzer!
Just finished dinner with my parents. =]
Time to start homework soon.
To do list:
-GnT chapter 8B
-English Extended answer on still image
David now sees no point in life. 'I no longer cared when she made fun of me.' He doesn't care what is going around him and just focuses on what he has to do. He had to eat from dog's leftovers because that was the only food he could get. He is really depressed and hates everything and everyone in his life. He hated his Father for not having enough courage to stand up for him and try to free him from his Mother.
His brothers didn't even treat him as a human being as well. They took advantage of him by taking turns to hit him.
His mother said 'Get one thing straight, you little son of a bitch! There is nothing you can do to impress me! Do you understand me? You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and I wish you were dead!' I sympathise for David at this point. He has done everything he could to make her happy but she just screams in his face. Everyone deserves equal rights no matter what.
From that moment onwards he turned rebellious. He didn't listen to his mothers commands in public and 'wasn't going to take anybody's crap anymore.' I think he is doing the right thing. He is trying to show them that he deserves more respect.
But his mother made him suffer at home which made David scared of sticking up for himself now. His father ended up leaving him with his mother. =[
Go read the book! 'A child called 'it'' by Dave Pelzer!
Just finished dinner with my parents. =]
Time to start homework soon.
To do list:
-GnT chapter 8B
-English Extended answer on still image
A Child Called it
'A Child Called 'It'' is a very sad autobiographical narrative by Dave Pelzer. It is a true story about a boy who is not treated as a human being but as an object. He has no rights to express what he feels because of his mother. I just finished chapter 6 and decided to write this blog to express how i feel.
David was sent to earn money for his mother and he had to meet the quota his mother set. He knows that if he doesn't make the quota he will not receive any food for a long time. He decided to steal $9 so he could make the quota to make his mother happy. Unfortunately he was caught. The man told his mother and his mother just hit him and punished him. She doesn't see that David stole to money just to make her happy.
His mother stabbed him in the stomach and called it 'an accident.' Even though his stomach was still bleeding his mother still made him do chores like washing the dishes, cleaning the bathroom by himself whilst he's two brothers are outside playing in the neighborhood. David had the courage to forgive him but expected his mother to make it up to him which she never did.
His mother knew a lady was going to interview her since they suspected something was wrong with the way David was being treated. Two days prior to the lady coming she treated David with the care and respect he deserved. He received a meal everyday, clothes without holes in them, right to play outside, right to sleep in a bed. That was all he wanted. David didn't know it was a set-up at that time. When the lady came to interview his mother and David she asked 'Does your mother hit you?' At this moment David realised he had been fooled. He knows that if he did tell the truth then he would not see tomorrow. He would rather suffer the pain himself then let her mother suffer. I believe David respects his mother too much and he gets other in return besides pain.
I recommend this book to everyone. It is the only book i've read when i didn't have to.
One more chapter till i finish the book. =] I'll update you when i finish.
David was sent to earn money for his mother and he had to meet the quota his mother set. He knows that if he doesn't make the quota he will not receive any food for a long time. He decided to steal $9 so he could make the quota to make his mother happy. Unfortunately he was caught. The man told his mother and his mother just hit him and punished him. She doesn't see that David stole to money just to make her happy.
His mother stabbed him in the stomach and called it 'an accident.' Even though his stomach was still bleeding his mother still made him do chores like washing the dishes, cleaning the bathroom by himself whilst he's two brothers are outside playing in the neighborhood. David had the courage to forgive him but expected his mother to make it up to him which she never did.
His mother knew a lady was going to interview her since they suspected something was wrong with the way David was being treated. Two days prior to the lady coming she treated David with the care and respect he deserved. He received a meal everyday, clothes without holes in them, right to play outside, right to sleep in a bed. That was all he wanted. David didn't know it was a set-up at that time. When the lady came to interview his mother and David she asked 'Does your mother hit you?' At this moment David realised he had been fooled. He knows that if he did tell the truth then he would not see tomorrow. He would rather suffer the pain himself then let her mother suffer. I believe David respects his mother too much and he gets other in return besides pain.
I recommend this book to everyone. It is the only book i've read when i didn't have to.
One more chapter till i finish the book. =] I'll update you when i finish.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Failing Goals
It's 7.2oAM right now and i have school in an hour or so. Just woke up to take a shower and now I'm writing this blog. In my previous blog i said my goal for that night was to complete a few things for my homework but i failed to even start my homework. I feel very disappointed in myself. If i cannot even start my homework then what makes me think that i can cope with the homework and stress in yr.12. I'm trying to change my attitude to homeowkr but i find it really hard to concentrate. Now i have a lot of homework tonight because i didn't do any last night.
F,DTMG,IHY=[,IETYGAYD!FVDPIY,IAEIMID!!!
Expectations.. Is it better to have no expectations or high expectations?
Right now it feels like if we dont have any expectations then we won't feel as down if the thing we want doesn't turn out right. Without any expectations then we'll be happier and be grateful for the small things we don't normally recognise. But without expectations then we won't be able to achieve our goal at the best of our ability.
Time to do hwk, eat breaky, and get ready for school.
Be back after school. =]
EDIT: I saw Kim today. =] HAPPY?
F,DTMG,IHY=[,IETYGAYD!FVDPIY,IAEIMID!!!
Expectations.. Is it better to have no expectations or high expectations?
Right now it feels like if we dont have any expectations then we won't feel as down if the thing we want doesn't turn out right. Without any expectations then we'll be happier and be grateful for the small things we don't normally recognise. But without expectations then we won't be able to achieve our goal at the best of our ability.
Time to do hwk, eat breaky, and get ready for school.
Be back after school. =]
EDIT: I saw Kim today. =] HAPPY?
9.09PM 12th August
This is my second blog today. I kind it quite fun expressing myself because i never do in real life. Well i just came home from b'ball, suf and skate sale. Spent like $1oo on clothes today... And played b'ball with my cousins and this random black guy. Accuracy today wasn't too good. Had a few lucky shots and missed some i should've got in.
Right now i'm listening to a song called Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park. Feel free to listen to it when you have free time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Km-WN1kLe44
I decided to listen to this song again because one of my closest friend listens to this song when there's something wrong. The first time i heard it i only thought it was okay because i wasn't focusing on the lyrics but today i listened to it again and loved it! The lyrics are very meaningful to me.
'But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared'
Well i will always care about you no matter what happens.
' When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed'
Well the wrongs you've done is what makes you you. It is important to know you've done 'wrong' but you can't just forget about the wrongs you've done. You should try to not do the wrong again and move on. If you leave me, you're spirit will still be with me forever. You make me who i am and without you it means i am not complete. There will always be a part of me missing. There are plenty of reasons, they might not all be good but they are still important.
' Keep me in your memory'
Always will. =]
Better start my hwk now.
EDIT: Hello Kim. Happy? You're name is in it. =] I better be in yours aswell
Right now i'm listening to a song called Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park. Feel free to listen to it when you have free time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Km-WN1kLe44
I decided to listen to this song again because one of my closest friend listens to this song when there's something wrong. The first time i heard it i only thought it was okay because i wasn't focusing on the lyrics but today i listened to it again and loved it! The lyrics are very meaningful to me.
'But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared'
Well i will always care about you no matter what happens.
' When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed'
Well the wrongs you've done is what makes you you. It is important to know you've done 'wrong' but you can't just forget about the wrongs you've done. You should try to not do the wrong again and move on. If you leave me, you're spirit will still be with me forever. You make me who i am and without you it means i am not complete. There will always be a part of me missing. There are plenty of reasons, they might not all be good but they are still important.
' Keep me in your memory'
Always will. =]
Better start my hwk now.
EDIT: Hello Kim. Happy? You're name is in it. =] I better be in yours aswell
12th of August
Well i just came back from school and feeling a bit hyper and hungry at the same time. Today was a good day since the only subject i hate was kinda good since i just sleep in english.. Hmm.. what hwk do i have tonight?.. I/c due tomorrow english and gnt due on thursday.. My goal tonight is to finish 5 questions from i/c and write half of my english by the end of tonight.
I decided to write this blog because i'm feeling bored. But going to the surf and skate sale at about 5. =] Time to spend some money on clothes =P. But there isn't much point buying a lot of clothes because people shouldn't judge us by what we wear. But the sad fact is that people always judge us before we get a chance to introduce ourselves. This is a fact we have to cope with because it can never change so all we can do is to not gave a damn on what other people think.
'Life is long, There will be pain but life goes on' is a good line from the song So you can cry by ne-yo. It shows that everyday will have some bad days from time to time but we still have to try our best to push through the hard times because there will always be a shining light at the end of the tunnel. Lets just hope the light isn't from a train.
Finished with my short blog.=] Probably write another one later tonight.
I decided to write this blog because i'm feeling bored. But going to the surf and skate sale at about 5. =] Time to spend some money on clothes =P. But there isn't much point buying a lot of clothes because people shouldn't judge us by what we wear. But the sad fact is that people always judge us before we get a chance to introduce ourselves. This is a fact we have to cope with because it can never change so all we can do is to not gave a damn on what other people think.
'Life is long, There will be pain but life goes on' is a good line from the song So you can cry by ne-yo. It shows that everyday will have some bad days from time to time but we still have to try our best to push through the hard times because there will always be a shining light at the end of the tunnel. Lets just hope the light isn't from a train.
Finished with my short blog.=] Probably write another one later tonight.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Just for KIM!
Kim should feel special because I'm using my homework time to write her this blog.
Well... I Kim is.... uhhh do i even know her? or is Kim just an imaginary friend?... O.o haha jks
I'm older than her by 7 whole days which is the same as 168 hours or 10080 seconds! She has to respect her elders. :D
She's the girl in the corner slitting her wrists in my GnT class! i joke=] She's actually surrounded by every guy in the class which makes me jealous! She shouldn't take all the guys.. she needs to leave some for me! :'( jks again =] She's the smartest kid in the whole school and gets 100% for every test! jks she wishes... she gets like 100% divided by 10.. jks! Well lets just say shes a very bright girl and can achieve what ever she wants if she puts her mind to it.
She likes listening to the songs i listen to that makes her cool!
And i have a confession to make to her. I only started writing this blog after she finished writing hers. Please forgive me kim. =]
Without further or do i now introduce you to my new friend... uhmm whats her name again?.. I remember! Her name is Bin! uhh her name doesn't sounds that good.. it must be Kim then!
Lets see how long our friendship flame would last for. You better not blow it out!
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Well... I Kim is.... uhhh do i even know her? or is Kim just an imaginary friend?... O.o haha jks
I'm older than her by 7 whole days which is the same as 168 hours or 10080 seconds! She has to respect her elders. :D
She's the girl in the corner slitting her wrists in my GnT class! i joke=] She's actually surrounded by every guy in the class which makes me jealous! She shouldn't take all the guys.. she needs to leave some for me! :'( jks again =] She's the smartest kid in the whole school and gets 100% for every test! jks she wishes... she gets like 100% divided by 10.. jks! Well lets just say shes a very bright girl and can achieve what ever she wants if she puts her mind to it.
She likes listening to the songs i listen to that makes her cool!
And i have a confession to make to her. I only started writing this blog after she finished writing hers. Please forgive me kim. =]
Without further or do i now introduce you to my new friend... uhmm whats her name again?.. I remember! Her name is Bin! uhh her name doesn't sounds that good.. it must be Kim then!
Lets see how long our friendship flame would last for. You better not blow it out!
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First Blog
Soo it's the 11th of August today and when i look at that date all i think is that there's 9 more days until my b'day! I'm so excited.. well not really because why would people celebrate their birthday when it means they just wasted one year of their life with no progress... it's like you celebrating because you have one year less to live. But i'm getting sidetracked...
Well i started blogging because i read kim's and i was like hm.. it's pretty good since you get to express you're thoughts and then later on you can look back at it and laugh at the stupid things you were thinking. I like never express what i feel inside to others so i i feel more comfortable just typing with i'm thinking. Well i liek privacy so i won't say everything i feel but i'll say what i think i won't mind others knowing about.
WOW! Third paragraph already.. Why can't i write this fast for my english essay.. don't really want it back because i don't think i deserve a good mark since the night before i was being lazy and not working on it so i'll be happy with anything over 6o% English is so boring because i don't seem to get anything out of it and now i kinda regret choosing 3A next year because apparently it's going to require a lot of hard work and i don't really think i can change my slack lifestyle right now.. I'm trying to but i just can't seem to do it.. i know i should be doing my hwk right now but i always get distracted by different things each time.
Well i think i should end my blog here and start doing my hwk.. and lets hope i won't get distracted like i always do =[
Thoughts of Sam Lei! =]
Well i started blogging because i read kim's and i was like hm.. it's pretty good since you get to express you're thoughts and then later on you can look back at it and laugh at the stupid things you were thinking. I like never express what i feel inside to others so i i feel more comfortable just typing with i'm thinking. Well i liek privacy so i won't say everything i feel but i'll say what i think i won't mind others knowing about.
WOW! Third paragraph already.. Why can't i write this fast for my english essay.. don't really want it back because i don't think i deserve a good mark since the night before i was being lazy and not working on it so i'll be happy with anything over 6o% English is so boring because i don't seem to get anything out of it and now i kinda regret choosing 3A next year because apparently it's going to require a lot of hard work and i don't really think i can change my slack lifestyle right now.. I'm trying to but i just can't seem to do it.. i know i should be doing my hwk right now but i always get distracted by different things each time.
Well i think i should end my blog here and start doing my hwk.. and lets hope i won't get distracted like i always do =[
Thoughts of Sam Lei! =]
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